Last night, besides a weird dream about traveling to Santa Fe with Andrea and Heinz and my Granny, I had a dream that an agent responded to one of my email queries. Unfortunately, the dream email was very confusing, neither a rejection nor a yes, I want to be your agent response. I’m starting to feel very bewildered with the whole process. I know agents are busy people, and a “new” author isn’t likely to get any attention, but I’m different. No, really, I am.
I know. I know. All authors believe they just wrote the Next Great American Novel (or whatever country they live in), but I read a lot, and I think my work is, at minimum, worth publishing. I also know that I’m being impatient. It hasn’t even been a month since I sent my first email query, but patience is not one of my virtues.
I’ve sent out ten queries and have received two rejections. I wonder whether I should just put it away, just forget about it. The reason I say this is that my dream seems so ambivalent. Shouldn’t I be dreaming about agents throwing huge deals at me? Ann-Marie dreamt that she attended one of my book signings (Granted there were some bizarre factors in her dream, but aren’t there always in dreams?). So, why am I not dreaming about book signings and success?